clearing the air, I breathed in the smoke

TAYLOR RELEASING A SURPRISE ALBUM ON MY BIRTHDAY MIGHT BE THE GREATEST THING TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME EVER!!!!!! I have been SO sad, wanting to just not celebrate at all, and then THIS. I had friends let me down, I realized I don’t really have anyone there for me, and I have just been feeling really left out lately and I was just dreading having to spend a birthday sad, lonely, left out, and forgotten, on top of in a pandemic. Which I know sounds dramatic, but since I was fifteen my family has not cared about my birthday because it was travel softball season, so I always woke up home alone with no one there and did nothing. SO that feeling continues into adulthood and it really does hurt my feelings a lot more than it probably should. But then Taylor!!!! Announces a brand new album!!! Coming out on MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! And I just LOST IT. “People haven’t always been there for me, but music always has” has never been more true!!! Even when the people I care the most about let me down, I can ALWAYS count on her and her music. I am so, so excited. I can’t believe this. What a turnaround. What a day. I am so thankful for this girl who has been making my life better for f o u r t e e n years. I will never get over her. She has done more for me than anyone else and I haven’t even ever met her. I still hope that ONE DAY I will get that chance, but for now, I am so, so grateful to have her and her music in my life. She’s been the support I needed, and I don’t know if I’d be here today without her. @taylorswift, I love you more than anything else in this world. Thank you. Thank you for everything, but especially, thank you for this.

I am SO happy. I am so thankful. I am SO. EXCITED.

tshifty:

when i die i want ticketmaster to lower me into my grave so they can let me down one last time. 

I logged on at 2:30 and did everything instantly and was still 2,000+ in line and honestly it’s been like this my whole life the only reason I saw fearless was because my uncle had comp tickets for whatever he wanted because his company sponsored the arena or something, only reason I saw red (before the pit sale thing which i also saw BLESS wish she’d do that again) and 1989 was because my aunt has a disability and was able to get handicap tickets which didn’t sell out like regular tickets because I tried so hard every damn tour this is just my life and only the red tour pit and rep tour worked out for me why does this SUCK SO MUCH

colorsinautumn:

EVERYONE PLEASE HANG IN THERE. I JUST GOT TICKETS AND THERE ARE PLENTY OF TICKETS LEFT AT REASONABLE PRICES. IT IS NOT SOLD OUT. KEEP HANGING ON AND STAY STRONG PLEASE.

I’m going to start crying please let me get these I literally only have $250 in my checking until next Tuesday please for fucks sake please

Can I fucking refresh this or something

thisdress:

2000+ people in front of me this is cute

What the actual fuck none of this automatically refreshed and there’s 2,000 people in front of me this is actually hopeless huh

I’m STRESSED